I have been blessed with a mere hour and a half before work to get everything requiring my laptop (with wifi) done and so far I'm making good time. I've pre-registered for class registration at school (way to be redundant school) and am now procrastinating on pulling up a new window to start browsing and possibly ordering a new laptop for my birthday/school.
I would have written more earlier but the pictures I want to put on a post are on my computer not my mom's and being forced to use a desktop as opposed to a laptop that practically has my LIFE on it is weird. Suffice to say it has been a long week, school prep, my birthday, work, trying to have a social life and being in a relationship that I wasn't aware of being in. Here's a good story for ya, everyone ready for this??
A few weeks ago an old friend of mine from high school sent me a message on Facebook more or less out of the blue blatantly asking me if I was seeing anyone, and since I'm not and wasn't planning to for a while I decided to hang out with the kid. I mean what's the worst that could happen? We're just two friends from high school catching up and hanging out...right...I was wrong apparently because two people of the opposite sex can NOT be friends!! Oh no, once you throw in emotions and sometimes hormones shit gets all sorts of out of hand. I thought that he and I were just friends just hanging out and catching up-the equivalant of a mini high school reunion. Extreme awkwardness in some situations included. Sure when he told me he liked me I returned the mutual feelings and told him I liked him too, but apparently my interpretation of his like for me was WAYYY off! We went out to Dave and Buster's for my birthday and scored a ridiculous amounts of tickets/random pieces of paper (his idea, not mine) and managed to split the winnings between ourselves equally which was cool. Then I made a mistake of inviting him over to watch a movie, I picked 500 Days of Summer because I thought it was a seemingly safe movie. not quite a chick flick and not boring.. boy was I wrong! Right before he left he asked me if we were a couple or not...and as life always tends to it imitated art. I just replied as nonchalantly as I could and told him that I didn't want a relationship, at least not now and called it a night.
Apparently those words are like kryptonite to guys, especially those in the "friends zone" because a good 75% of the texts that he sent to me and to my best friend about me the day after my birthday were brimming with douchiness and made this once nice guy turn into an "arrogant prick". His words not mine, though they do ring true, but ya know I had to do what I had to do. Forced attraction is not something I'm into especially when I thought that an unspoken understanding was in place. The next day I woke up feeling as though I had a hole in my chest the size of my lung...turns out it was just because I had accidentally hurt the poor guy the night before without really realizing it. I know I'm a stupid heartless bitch for it or whatever but in my defense I'm kind of romantically inept I only interact with guys that I work with/ are customers and the friends of mine at work that are guys understand how utterly complicated and fucked up I really am even if I don't show it too much. Because that's just how misfits are.
So maybe one day when I can figure out what I want and have my shit in order will I will a guy past the iron walls that I have built around my heart, til then I think it's just time to focus on the future and school and whatever else may come up during that time. I just need a little push off the edge for me to jump into anything with a guy, my fear is paralyzing...
P.S I got a shot glass and a stuffed Smurfette (hehe) for my birthday and a new laptop that I just ordered.
Have a good day all!
xoxo
Showing posts with label boys are dumb. Show all posts
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Friday, June 10, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Good Lord, really?
I checked my email the other day, not really expecting to find anything I was gifted with this nugget;
Wow you are so pretty and you have a nice and good smile,bet you were created for a good purpose and for a wonderful man like me..I would love to know more about you as your profile and picture really caught my attention .. I am very self reliant and I am honest, loyal and I stand by the ones I love. I expect to be treated with the same respect. ? I dislike false people who cannot stand up for themselves or what they believe in. I don?t like dishonesty in any form, in my opinion,there is no such thing as a white lie. .Lets talk more better..Anyway nice smile..You are so sweet
I have no words to describe how I felt after I read this..other than stupid.
Wow you are so pretty and you have a nice and good smile,bet you were created for a good purpose and for a wonderful man like me..I would love to know more about you as your profile and picture really caught my attention .. I am very self reliant and I am honest, loyal and I stand by the ones I love. I expect to be treated with the same respect. ? I dislike false people who cannot stand up for themselves or what they believe in. I don?t like dishonesty in any form, in my opinion,there is no such thing as a white lie. .Lets talk more better..Anyway nice smile..You are so sweet
I have no words to describe how I felt after I read this..other than stupid.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Why do we never learn from our mistakes?
After tonight I think a rant type thing-a-ma-jig is in order here.
Attention gentleman I'm about to let you in on a HUGE secret about your fellow species, the fairer of the sexes, the Eve's to your Adam's. Are you ready? Can you handle it? Ok lean in close it's a big secret that you should all know and try to remember every now and then about the women around you. ALL OF THEM!!
Have you ever seen the movies Witches of Eastwick? Practical Magic? Terms of Endearment? Noticing a pattern or two here? Besides the fact that they are all chick flicks they are also stories of women with power and an emotion or two. But the power in which I speak of is one that we all have (yes some use their's sparingly or not at all) while others would consider it almost like air to them if it had to be used 24/7. It's called Women's Intuition gentlemen! It's probably one of the things that you dislike most about your girlfriend's because us women like to nag, and yes we do think that we are ALWAYS right so stop wasting your breath and just nod your head yes to us 98% of the time. Even if we are wrong in the end eventually some of us will admit it and be slightly remorseful.
Now to the point...betcha might want that now, huh?
Well tonight is finally Saturday! The day/evening that I was supposed to go on a what I thought was fairly set in stone date as far as plans went (meeting place,distance between each other and whatnot). Boy was I 7 sorts of wrong there. I thought we were going to a shopping district area thing for dinner and coffee and to walk and talk or whatever. Nope two hours or so before I was about to get ready and put a little more effort into my appearance he texts me asking where we were meeting. See my confusion?After giving some BS excuses about it "not being his scene" and that he was worried about me being bored and that he didn't know the area too well. He offered up some suggestions and since I am not too active in exploring my native city past the Broadway Bridge (especially alone, and too fairly unfamiliar territory) and especially to meet a near perfect stranger. I listened to my ituition and my friend with whom I was staying with last night and this afternoon and a yellow flag or two showed up and any possible dangers that may have lurked in tonight's shadows were dodged.
I think it's time for a little info about the gentleman- a pro's and con's list if you will.
Pro's
He lives in Overland Park.
No offense to the guy but in my past experiences with guys from that area they seem to think that their money and cars and the sizes of their houses give them the right to treat women that are not from that area like dirt under their over priced shoes. Sorry bucko but that's not how us Missouri girl's (like me) roll.
I hit a new record for myself, I did something wrong to upset them or scare them off before we have even met, even though we had been talking for about a month or two! Even after I gave him a "quasi apology" he kept pouring salt in as though everything was kosher. I'm not stupid so there's no reason to talk to me as though your my teacher or something. I am also not one to start drama because it's completely unnecessary! But a simple answer would have sufficed for me, either meet me at the what I thought was a previously discussed and agreed upon location or just say no. My skin has become pretty thick and resiliant against emotions and some attempts to hurt from others so I wasn't really all that hurt. I was doing what I would have been doing if I hadn't made the date in the first place and was off work anyways and I had fun hanging out with a friend and getting introduced to The United States of Tara.
But tomorrow's another day!
How was every one else's weekends?
xoxo
Attention gentleman I'm about to let you in on a HUGE secret about your fellow species, the fairer of the sexes, the Eve's to your Adam's. Are you ready? Can you handle it? Ok lean in close it's a big secret that you should all know and try to remember every now and then about the women around you. ALL OF THEM!!
Have you ever seen the movies Witches of Eastwick? Practical Magic? Terms of Endearment? Noticing a pattern or two here? Besides the fact that they are all chick flicks they are also stories of women with power and an emotion or two. But the power in which I speak of is one that we all have (yes some use their's sparingly or not at all) while others would consider it almost like air to them if it had to be used 24/7. It's called Women's Intuition gentlemen! It's probably one of the things that you dislike most about your girlfriend's because us women like to nag, and yes we do think that we are ALWAYS right so stop wasting your breath and just nod your head yes to us 98% of the time. Even if we are wrong in the end eventually some of us will admit it and be slightly remorseful.
Now to the point...betcha might want that now, huh?
Well tonight is finally Saturday! The day/evening that I was supposed to go on a what I thought was fairly set in stone date as far as plans went (meeting place,distance between each other and whatnot). Boy was I 7 sorts of wrong there. I thought we were going to a shopping district area thing for dinner and coffee and to walk and talk or whatever. Nope two hours or so before I was about to get ready and put a little more effort into my appearance he texts me asking where we were meeting. See my confusion?After giving some BS excuses about it "not being his scene" and that he was worried about me being bored and that he didn't know the area too well. He offered up some suggestions and since I am not too active in exploring my native city past the Broadway Bridge (especially alone, and too fairly unfamiliar territory) and especially to meet a near perfect stranger. I listened to my ituition and my friend with whom I was staying with last night and this afternoon and a yellow flag or two showed up and any possible dangers that may have lurked in tonight's shadows were dodged.
I think it's time for a little info about the gentleman- a pro's and con's list if you will.
Pro's
- He's smart and funny.
- A college grad and has a steady job that he is good at.
- He wrote me a character reference for a job that I applied for that is the same company that he works for just a different location.
- He made me feel special for awhile.
He lives in Overland Park.
No offense to the guy but in my past experiences with guys from that area they seem to think that their money and cars and the sizes of their houses give them the right to treat women that are not from that area like dirt under their over priced shoes. Sorry bucko but that's not how us Missouri girl's (like me) roll.
I hit a new record for myself, I did something wrong to upset them or scare them off before we have even met, even though we had been talking for about a month or two! Even after I gave him a "quasi apology" he kept pouring salt in as though everything was kosher. I'm not stupid so there's no reason to talk to me as though your my teacher or something. I am also not one to start drama because it's completely unnecessary! But a simple answer would have sufficed for me, either meet me at the what I thought was a previously discussed and agreed upon location or just say no. My skin has become pretty thick and resiliant against emotions and some attempts to hurt from others so I wasn't really all that hurt. I was doing what I would have been doing if I hadn't made the date in the first place and was off work anyways and I had fun hanging out with a friend and getting introduced to The United States of Tara.
But tomorrow's another day!
How was every one else's weekends?
xoxo
Monday, March 14, 2011
The Bachelor is a total skeeze
**this is my first viewing of this season and it's the end. Perfect timing!**
Ohhhh The Bachelor how I loathe thee. Shall I list the ways?
One guy, 24 girls to start and then he gives a single fucking rose to the ones he wants to stay.
Ohhhh The Bachelor how I loathe thee. Shall I list the ways?
One guy, 24 girls to start and then he gives a single fucking rose to the ones he wants to stay.
While he mulls over which girl he wants to have sex with more than once he bangs every one else that looks like a Barbie. (Talk about STD's) The show is like Big Love but WORSE ON SOO MANY LEVELS, but Bill Paxton is a fucking fox.
This season especially sucks, Brad (who is clingy as hell) effed things up the first time so naturally he took to it again in hopes of finding his perfect one. Because that's what American dating has come to. If it's not found via the internet, or a bar, or through friends it's on a reality TV show that should have been cancelled a LONG time ago. God dammit my fellow American's why can't we make TV like it used to be but with our new technologies integrated in somehow? 3D should only be used in the theatres and if a movie must have the 3D effect than the DVD should come with a handful of paper glasses. It's much cheaper then what companies do now..
Not gonna lie I'm a bit of a reality TV show junkie, I watch The Real World at least every other season, I'm a sucker for Teen Mom and I love My Life as Liz (if you can call it a reality tv show). Back in the day I watched as a bunch of regular people were thrown on an island and forced to figure out who would be the real Survivor, but these days Reality TV and some normal shows are slowly circling the drain.
now for the "After the final rose" ceremony..
He picks the girl that looks like a beautiful Barbie doll but has a a kid, so that takes care of that for him and the girl that looks like Katy Perry got dumped. They both deserve happiness and I'm about as happy for them as I care to be for about the minute that I actually care about this show.
I'm really not this cynical about love, just about finding actual lasting love on a reality TV show for the world to see. At least if it's through a website your competition is faceless and you're free to talk to more than one person if you want. It's kind of a good thing, scary at times but if you get the right site (if there is one) than your doing pretty good.
I do understand that shows like The Bachelor are great escapes for the trials and tribulations for daily life and they make us feel inspired and believe that love is really out there...somewhere.
I'm so contradictory tonight! Fucking a.
What are your thoughts on finding love through a TV show?
xoxo
This season especially sucks, Brad (who is clingy as hell) effed things up the first time so naturally he took to it again in hopes of finding his perfect one. Because that's what American dating has come to. If it's not found via the internet, or a bar, or through friends it's on a reality TV show that should have been cancelled a LONG time ago. God dammit my fellow American's why can't we make TV like it used to be but with our new technologies integrated in somehow? 3D should only be used in the theatres and if a movie must have the 3D effect than the DVD should come with a handful of paper glasses. It's much cheaper then what companies do now..
Not gonna lie I'm a bit of a reality TV show junkie, I watch The Real World at least every other season, I'm a sucker for Teen Mom and I love My Life as Liz (if you can call it a reality tv show). Back in the day I watched as a bunch of regular people were thrown on an island and forced to figure out who would be the real Survivor, but these days Reality TV and some normal shows are slowly circling the drain.
now for the "After the final rose" ceremony..
He picks the girl that looks like a beautiful Barbie doll but has a a kid, so that takes care of that for him and the girl that looks like Katy Perry got dumped. They both deserve happiness and I'm about as happy for them as I care to be for about the minute that I actually care about this show.
I'm really not this cynical about love, just about finding actual lasting love on a reality TV show for the world to see. At least if it's through a website your competition is faceless and you're free to talk to more than one person if you want. It's kind of a good thing, scary at times but if you get the right site (if there is one) than your doing pretty good.
I do understand that shows like The Bachelor are great escapes for the trials and tribulations for daily life and they make us feel inspired and believe that love is really out there...somewhere.
I'm so contradictory tonight! Fucking a.
What are your thoughts on finding love through a TV show?
xoxo
Monday, February 28, 2011
I am woman, hear me ROAR!
Attention gentlemen THIS ..."Hey is your mom Single? She's extremely GORGEOUS. You are too, and you look a lot better with long hair, but still beautiful :D.I like your profile. Would you like to get to know each other?"... is NOT the way to get a girls positive attention. At least not a girl like me anyways, maybe I'm being too tough on the opposite sex these days because I'm a little jaded, or I just really know what I am looking for in a guy, but what are you gonna do?
Don't get my wrong I wouldn't mind having a guy to wrap his arms around me during a movie, have a picnic with and take pictures with on lovely days such as these. Also, having a guy that can keep muggers away, and isn't afraid of things. I've been through too much already in my life that I don't want a guy that is going to hold me down and keep me down just because of their own insecurities. That's just not how I roll, sorry. I know that everyone has their own sets of insecurities and I totally have a handful or two of my own, no denying that.
I'm also a hopeless romantic so the fact that I'm so cynical about love and guys (right now) doesn't really make sense, I know. But I have learned enough from my mom and from being born in the age of the independent woman that success is possible without a man.
I do have unfaltering faith that there IS someone out there for me that is more or less exactly what I'm looking for in a guy, and as long as they can accept my eccentricities and I will promise to accept their's with my whole heart and nothing less. I know that I have a lot of things to work on and with time and a shit load of patience from both sides, progress will be made..
Til' then it's all about ME..
xoxo
Don't get my wrong I wouldn't mind having a guy to wrap his arms around me during a movie, have a picnic with and take pictures with on lovely days such as these. Also, having a guy that can keep muggers away, and isn't afraid of things. I've been through too much already in my life that I don't want a guy that is going to hold me down and keep me down just because of their own insecurities. That's just not how I roll, sorry. I know that everyone has their own sets of insecurities and I totally have a handful or two of my own, no denying that.
I do have unfaltering faith that there IS someone out there for me that is more or less exactly what I'm looking for in a guy, and as long as they can accept my eccentricities and I will promise to accept their's with my whole heart and nothing less. I know that I have a lot of things to work on and with time and a shit load of patience from both sides, progress will be made..
Til' then it's all about ME..
xoxo
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