I am woman, hear me ROAR!

Attention gentlemen THIS ..."Hey is your mom Single? She's extremely GORGEOUS. You are too, and you look a lot better with long hair, but still beautiful :D.I like your profile. Would you like to get to know each other?"... is NOT the way to get a girls positive attention. At least not a girl like me anyways, maybe I'm being too tough on the opposite sex these days because I'm a little jaded, or I just really know what I am looking for in a guy, but what are you gonna do? 


Don't get my wrong I wouldn't mind having a guy to wrap his arms around me during a movie, have a picnic with and take pictures with on lovely days such as these. Also, having a guy that can keep muggers away, and isn't afraid of things. I've been through too much already in my life that I don't want a guy that is going to hold me down and keep me down just because of their own insecurities. That's just not how I roll, sorry. I know that everyone has their own sets of insecurities and I totally have a handful or two of my own, no denying that. 

I'm also a hopeless romantic so the fact that I'm so cynical about love and guys (right now) doesn't really make sense, I know. But I have learned enough from my mom and from being born in the age of the independent woman that success is possible without a man.  


I do have unfaltering faith that there IS someone out there for me that is more or less exactly what I'm looking for in a guy, and as long as they can accept my eccentricities and I will promise to accept their's with my whole heart and nothing less. I know that I have a lot of things to work on and with time and a shit load of patience from both sides, progress will be made..


Til' then it's all about ME..


xoxo

I have some secrets...

50 SECRETS ;
be honest no matter what!

1. your ex texted you and wanted you back, would you take them back?
I don't think so.

2. your relationship status?
Single and loving it.

3. where did you meet your crush?
I don't have one of those at the moment. 

4. have you ever lost a close friend?
Yep. 

5. do you smoke weed regularly?
Nope. Not at all.

6. think back to the beginning of 2010, were you dating the person your dating now?
No.

7. would your parents be mad if you were in a relationship?
No, as long as I'm happy their happy.

8. when was the last time you really laughed?
Earlier tonight.

9. something's wrong: FIRST guy you turn to?
Depends on the situation at hand.

10. FIRST girl you'd go to?
Cate or Tara. 

11. is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you didn't even do?
Not that I'm aware of. 

12. angry at anyone?
Not really. 

13. what's stopping you from going for the person you like?
I don't like anyone at the moment, so I guess the person?

14. when was the last time you cried really hard?
I don't remember, it's been a while.

15. is there anyone you would do anything for?
mmmhhmmmmm

16. say you were given a pregnancy test right now. would you pass?
Yep. :)

17. who was the last person you talked to for more than 1O mins on the phone?
My best friend Cate :)

18. what is your favorite song?
Tidal Wave-Owl City

19. do you like redbull?
Ew. No. 

20. how many people can you tell just about everything to?
Several, but each one has a different "category" for lack of better words. 

21. have you ever wished on a shooting star?
Yes. It is fun. 

22. does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?
Now in a just friends kind of way.

23. describe your life in one word?
Chaos. 

24. what emoticon would you use to describe your life?
:D

25. have anything that belongs to your former bf/gf?
I don't think so.

26. can you honestly say you've had a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Yes.
27. do you miss someone at the moment?
My dad and my little brother, and some cousin's and aunts.

28. ever wanted to have sex with someone you can't?
uh...no not really.

29. what would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship?
Move on.

30. do you act differently around the person you like?
Sometimes, depends on the person.

31. honestly, who is the last person you msn'd and do you have their number?
N/A
32. is it hard to make you laugh?
Nope. 

33. who was the last person to make you mad?
A customer at work.

34. do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
I don't know.

35. have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
Yes, it was nice :)
36. What are you excited for?
The future and what it may hold.

37. would you like to put a night on repeat, and live it forever?
Maybe one or two but for the most part no.
38. do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
I think so.

39. is your best friend a slut?
Not that I'm aware of.

4O. is smoking pot a turn off?
Touchy subject. 

41. are you happy with life right now?
Some parts could be better but for the most part yes.

44. have you ever been the "other person" in a relationship?
Nope, and I never will be.

45. have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes.

46. have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes... 

47. is there anybody you're really disappointed in?
Yes kind of, but  I hope it will pass.

48. where is your best friend?
At home I hope.

49. someone who can make you smile even when your sad?
About anyone from work.

50. how is your heart lately?
It's good but mainly touch and go these days.


I hope to have something better to read soon. I just found this on a friend's Facebook and wanted to at least write something else before this month is out. 
xoxo

I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well.

As promised I have made my return. Sorry for my extended absence, it has been TOO long!

Attempt number 2.

It seems spring has sprung and a LOT of things in my life have changed since the last time I wrote, the usual mix of bad and good, "but you can't have the sweet with out the sour." as a friend of mine told me the other day. Thanks :). 
After a rollercoaster of emotions and a relationship I've come to my senses(or something) about my relations with the opposite sex: their better as friends or at a distance. I'm NOT ready to let someone get too close or really even into my world right now, because it's more than a mess. It's more like a minefield (watch your step),  but it's one that I know how to navigate because after all I've been through the eggshells have started to feel more like cake.

So once again, I'm reinventing myself and ever changing, like humans do.

My life will be lived for me and no one else right now because dammit aren't women that are independent hot or something?  Right now my family and friends and myself are the the MOST important people in my life, and I'm happy with that at this point in my life. I have had a lot of inspiration and reassurance in the past couple of months that fabulousity and joy can come from the most random of things in this world. I guess a hearty appreciation for the simple things in life really may have something to do with that sentiment.

So here's to you and yours! Have a great night/day.
                      XOXO
If my words still aren't helping or inspiring enough or something like that then there is always this nugget, because who doesn't love a guy that can tickle the ivory's and sing a great love song?