this is your life, are you who you want to be?

Alright, I have been M.I.A long enough. I think that now is as good a time as any to write. I kind of feel like a modern-day Abe Lincoln writing by the flickering glow of a candle. Too bad Abe didn't have the internet and the ability to write sans quills and parchment (they used that at that time right?). I digress, yet I still don't know where to start...

*pause for the words to come to me*

"You don't have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body"

-C.S Lewis

Have you ever felt that you were meant for something bigger and better then what you are stuck doing now? I don't know about you but I feel that on a regular basis. It kind of makes some sense after all I have been through in my young life you would think that maybe Karma or the big guy upstairs would give me a break or something. I have always lived by the Golden Rule and treat people how I would like to be treated, yes sometimes I fail to do so, or unintentionally treat someone the less than desired way. But that's why we are human. We are allowed to make mistakes even if others around us don't think that we should pursue one thing or another, but that's why "results may vary" is such a true statement. I think I deserve a little slack, at least a little more then I've had in the past.

The other day while out applying for jobs and trying to get some Avon orders I believe a miracle happened, I was filling out an application when a complete stranger walked up to me and started to chat for a minute or two. This stranger I believe was sent to me for a reason and that reason is: when all hope is lost never despair because answers do come soon. That day I was offered and opportunity that I feel very strongly about not turning down. I am now in the process of racking my brain to figure out a way to pursue this new endeavor even if others around me don't see it working out for me. When you have gone through all the things that I have gone through you start to become a pessimist wrapped up in a blanket of optimism, and this warmth and security will not be taken away! Life is too short to be overly pessimistic!



I think that about wraps it up for tonight..thank you to all that have been there for me through everything and continue to do so, I love you and you mean the world to me!

Also here's a list of fall/winter movies that I want to review for you all soon: The Social Network, It's Kind of a Funny Story, Red, Life as we Know it, Due Date, Jackass 3D,Never Let Me Go (some to be on DVD),Love and Other Drugs, Hereafter,Tangled, and Black Swan. I can't wait! I see more blog posts in the future once I get a chance to see these movies!

*Dating sabotical update: I'm doing good, except that an old friend from back in the day has come back into my life and old feelings have risen again so we are just talking for now and getting to know each other again. We'll just have to see where that goes! :)

XOXO