When did I become such a girl?!

This fall I met a great guy and we started dating and eventually became a couple. It all happened rather fast and since I haven’t been in a committed relationship in a good two and a half years. Now the boyfriend and I have made it to almost 4 months, which I know isn’t a big thing really I know, but for me it is because I haven’t made it with a guy as awesome as my boyfriend is in quite some time.  Earlier today I was having dinner with a friend of mine and we were discussing our boyfriend’s and the little things that guys do that irritate us, for example, not keeping up their end of the communication going, or spending more time with their video games then with us. I’m not whining because I am happy but I don’t want to be this insecure, needy girl that we girls tend to be burdened with some times but we can’t help it. It’s how we are, especially when we are in relationships, with guys that we really like and have been with for quite some time (my friend’s situation, not mine).

I never used to be like this; sure I’ve always been a hopeless romantic. But I have also always been ridiculously independent and letting someone else take care of me is something that’s not always been easy for me. Even though I really should let myself be taken care of by someone else now and then it’s not always the easiest thing to do. Any fiercely independent girl will probably agree. I think that I may have a touch of separation anxiety…so that’s wicked awesome. Especially during this time of year, while I enjoy hanging out with my family and friends and I want the boyfriend to be happy and hang out with his family and friend’s but  this living  hours away from each other during long times of separation is no bueno.  I know that I can do it and make it through until I see him again but I don’t want our relationship to be weakened by this break.  I don’t mind so much the separation on Christmas for us, because he and I have already had our Christmas, but I want to bring in the New Year with him, I want to kiss him when the ball drops, I want to toast to the new year with him and for us to share the excitement of what the future may hold together. But we sadly can’t, because you can’t always get what you want, you get what you need.

Yes, I'm in love. Deal with it bitches. I've got it  bad enough that the ex mocked me for it. But I used my words and gave him a piece of my mind because I was not in the mood to deal with ANYONE'S crap the whole time I was writing this!

I guess until the boyfriend and I can find a time to get together before school starts that I will just have to play the patient waiting game.

Xoxo all

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you all