When did I become such a girl?!

This fall I met a great guy and we started dating and eventually became a couple. It all happened rather fast and since I haven’t been in a committed relationship in a good two and a half years. Now the boyfriend and I have made it to almost 4 months, which I know isn’t a big thing really I know, but for me it is because I haven’t made it with a guy as awesome as my boyfriend is in quite some time.  Earlier today I was having dinner with a friend of mine and we were discussing our boyfriend’s and the little things that guys do that irritate us, for example, not keeping up their end of the communication going, or spending more time with their video games then with us. I’m not whining because I am happy but I don’t want to be this insecure, needy girl that we girls tend to be burdened with some times but we can’t help it. It’s how we are, especially when we are in relationships, with guys that we really like and have been with for quite some time (my friend’s situation, not mine).

I never used to be like this; sure I’ve always been a hopeless romantic. But I have also always been ridiculously independent and letting someone else take care of me is something that’s not always been easy for me. Even though I really should let myself be taken care of by someone else now and then it’s not always the easiest thing to do. Any fiercely independent girl will probably agree. I think that I may have a touch of separation anxiety…so that’s wicked awesome. Especially during this time of year, while I enjoy hanging out with my family and friends and I want the boyfriend to be happy and hang out with his family and friend’s but  this living  hours away from each other during long times of separation is no bueno.  I know that I can do it and make it through until I see him again but I don’t want our relationship to be weakened by this break.  I don’t mind so much the separation on Christmas for us, because he and I have already had our Christmas, but I want to bring in the New Year with him, I want to kiss him when the ball drops, I want to toast to the new year with him and for us to share the excitement of what the future may hold together. But we sadly can’t, because you can’t always get what you want, you get what you need.

Yes, I'm in love. Deal with it bitches. I've got it  bad enough that the ex mocked me for it. But I used my words and gave him a piece of my mind because I was not in the mood to deal with ANYONE'S crap the whole time I was writing this!

I guess until the boyfriend and I can find a time to get together before school starts that I will just have to play the patient waiting game.

Xoxo all

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you all 

Independent Women, FTW! Until they meet a douche..( Beauty and the Beast syndrome at it's worst)

What do you do when your best friend of 5 years starts dating someone and your left behind and have become a substitute?

First off I really am happy for my best friend, she's been living the single life for quite some time and she has really shined through it all. She personified the term "independent woman". Sure she's struggled here and there, who hasn't? But she has always come out shining. I'm very proud to be able to call her my friend. But I am worried that she may be losing some of her luster.

I don't know if this has happened to you but I think that this is just ridiculous! **I'm about to be a little bitter and bitchy for a paragraph or two** I was here first, I was here for her when she needed me to kill the bugs that were in her way and to reach the things on the high shelves. Now I'm just the fill in if the boyfriend can't hang out for some reason. That's not how I roll. Especially since before he came along people used to ask us if she and I were sisters, SISTERS!
But the second he flashes his shiny car and they share their first kiss she's gone like I was never here! It really doesn't help that he thinks he's better than me just because he works at a hospital,drives a nice car,and is in school. But I have gone through more in my short life then he can ever imagine and I've worked for all that I have. This may be exaggerating the situation a little bit but it feels like every day she goes more and more into the dark side. We all know that good things never come to those that fully convert. Sigh. I'm sorry I just really,really needed to get this out. There's more but I'm not going to share it for personal reasons.

Also someone that calls his gay brother a "waste of space" and then calls themselves a "Christian" while doing so, needs some help. Most recently though he did something to me that totally messed up my night and I was not amused. He and my friend went out and a few days before I had just got my new (new to me) car and I heard a slam. I think I knew it was his doors when he came in and goes, "Nicole, um did you hear that noise? I accidentally thought my gas pedal was my brake. I'm sorry." I was a little more then mad at this point, even though in my head I knew that he didn't but I was still pissed off. He then came back to my door laughing and nonchalantly goes, "I was just messing with you Nicole, you should have seen your face!" All the while laughing and my room mate is nowhere to be found,I hope she makes him apologize to me. You just don't do that to someone that hasn't had many nice things (mainly cars) in their life. Maybe it's just me....

Thoughts?

So here's a little diddy for the man child (my friends bf)

Tell me, have you ever lost a friend to a significant other or felt abandoned by a friend?

P.S Let me make it clear, I'm not hot for the guy or jealous of my friend (if she's happy I'm happy,even if I think the guy is a jerk.) and right now I'm just seeing what's out there for me. I don't mind the single life. When someone is supposed to come into my life they will, until then I'm taking care of my stuff and waiting.