One more freakin' week

This winter break shit has gone on for far too long. Yes, last week was an exception, but that's only because my boyfriend came down and we had some fun with my family so it wasn't completely unbearable. Don't get me wrong I've had some good times with friends and even my family during break but I'm ready to go back home, to school.

Though there have been some good things that I have gotten to do while on break that will be helpful for returning to school, I have been a total sloth and didn't get out of my pj's for several days and while I can still do this on campus it was still awesome to do it at home and not have to feel rushed to do anything. Then again I was also accused of messing up my family's sleep schedule because my sleep schedule was still on college student time, so that wasn't so awesome (for them).

During break  I haven't completely stuck to home, a friend and I went to see New Year's Eve before the holiday and well I'm not going to lie, it was cute. Definitely better than the train wreck that was Valentine's Day, the only thing that that movie had going for it was the star studded cast. Then we went to eat and I have never loved the taste of fries as much as I did when I was hanging out with my friend just talking and laughing and people watching. It was definitely what both her and I needed, even though the insanity of the holidays was just starting to begin.

 

There are several things that I am looking forward to next week, besides going back home (school), my signed copy of "The Fault in Our Stars' by John Green comes out and my copy will come in the mail, then get to go to work with my mom for a couple of days out of the week to get some money for myself and soon after that I'm going to go get one of my friends that I'm driving back up to school with me and is going to spend the night on Thursday, then we're going to head up and begin the new semester!

Besides starting yearbook and other interesting classes and getting my financial aid in order I'm also hoping to get a job on campus or off as soon as possible. It would help soo much!

Are you ready for school to start back up? What have you missed?

xoxo

The missing woman has been found!

So earlier today I was on Facebook just checking up on things and posting on a wall or two when I saw a status update from one of my supposedly best friends that I hadn't heard from in going on four months. She's in Texas, Texas!! I figured that she would be going down there this summer as it's something that she does twice a year to see family but I tried IM'ing her and calling her but that led to no avail. Sadly I think that her and I's friendship has run it's course. I almost saw this day coming the day she met her boyfriend, I tried to be happy for her but he was never really my favorite. I got  the heebeegeebees just being around the guy.

But at least I have learned one great thing today, I know who my true friends are whether they are right down the road or halfway across the country they will be there when I call or tweet or text. But this, this stress I really don't need. Not now, not ever especially since I wouldn't do something like this to her. I don't know if I will be her for her when he breaks her heart or something like that because right now my education is going to be my equivalant of her boyfriend. Yup, I'm going to be glued to it's hip every day and night and were going to be together for the next 4+ years! I'm excited!

To the friends, near, far and away I love you and thank you for being there for me and you know who you are!

When Vada lost Thomas J

Prom 2007

All that stress that I droned on about in the last post now seems very irrelevant and pithy compared to the bomb that was dropped on my this afternoon thirty minutes before I had to go to work today. A really close friend of mine that lives about an hour and a half  away from me was killed yesterday morning at 2 am. I recieved the message from my mom who was taking my brother to the grocery store after his football game. When she told me the news I sat in shock and awe for a good 15 minutes, I'm still mortified that something like this happened to one of my closest friends.

I drove to work like a statue almost and was more or less the same at work too, except for the required small talk and smile that is required in my line of work my emotions were on lock down. I think I've lost the ability to cry actually, I always seem to be in a constant state of shock that sadly even death of a dear friend who's parents and and mine thought that one day he and I would have a future together as more can't melt the cold heart I think I have.

I don't know what to do, even as I type this and tell other close friends of he and I's I still don't know what to do. I guess the only good thing that I can gather from the very little details I've heard all night was that he probably didn't suffer.

Happy Day!

So I won an award, I don't know what to say honestly besides THANK YOU! I was awarded The Versatile Blogger by the lovely Victoria, if you guys aren't following her already you're missing out.

Now the duties to officially accepting this award:

1. Thank the person who gave you the award and link them back to your post


2. Tell seven things about yourself

3. Award to 10 new bloggers

4. Contact these new bloggers and let them know they have received this award.

Now for the seven things about moi. Miley Cyrus is looping in my head right now, thanks Victoria :P

1. I'm obsessed with E!
2. I'm a master of procrasination unless it needs to get done immediately, which is also why I haven't done my taxes yet.
3. I want Ina Garten to adopt me and teach me how to master cooking and baking.
4. I want to work in movies or television some day, anything that involves getting awesome things to the masses.
5. I believe that every thing happens for a reason.
6. Ke$ha, Jimmy Buffet and Don Henley are my happy music.
7. How I Met Your Mother is the greatest show ever!

Now I get to give some awards out myself.

Carrie Bradshaw is Full of Sh*t!
Dancing on the Bar of Life
Documenting the Delusional
Her Glowing Life
Lightning Bug's Butt
Notes from Underground
Sara Swears A Lot
The Lexical Gap
Twenty Somethings
S.S Vintage

I love you all!

Independent Women, FTW! Until they meet a douche..( Beauty and the Beast syndrome at it's worst)

What do you do when your best friend of 5 years starts dating someone and your left behind and have become a substitute?

First off I really am happy for my best friend, she's been living the single life for quite some time and she has really shined through it all. She personified the term "independent woman". Sure she's struggled here and there, who hasn't? But she has always come out shining. I'm very proud to be able to call her my friend. But I am worried that she may be losing some of her luster.

I don't know if this has happened to you but I think that this is just ridiculous! **I'm about to be a little bitter and bitchy for a paragraph or two** I was here first, I was here for her when she needed me to kill the bugs that were in her way and to reach the things on the high shelves. Now I'm just the fill in if the boyfriend can't hang out for some reason. That's not how I roll. Especially since before he came along people used to ask us if she and I were sisters, SISTERS!
But the second he flashes his shiny car and they share their first kiss she's gone like I was never here! It really doesn't help that he thinks he's better than me just because he works at a hospital,drives a nice car,and is in school. But I have gone through more in my short life then he can ever imagine and I've worked for all that I have. This may be exaggerating the situation a little bit but it feels like every day she goes more and more into the dark side. We all know that good things never come to those that fully convert. Sigh. I'm sorry I just really,really needed to get this out. There's more but I'm not going to share it for personal reasons.

Also someone that calls his gay brother a "waste of space" and then calls themselves a "Christian" while doing so, needs some help. Most recently though he did something to me that totally messed up my night and I was not amused. He and my friend went out and a few days before I had just got my new (new to me) car and I heard a slam. I think I knew it was his doors when he came in and goes, "Nicole, um did you hear that noise? I accidentally thought my gas pedal was my brake. I'm sorry." I was a little more then mad at this point, even though in my head I knew that he didn't but I was still pissed off. He then came back to my door laughing and nonchalantly goes, "I was just messing with you Nicole, you should have seen your face!" All the while laughing and my room mate is nowhere to be found,I hope she makes him apologize to me. You just don't do that to someone that hasn't had many nice things (mainly cars) in their life. Maybe it's just me....

Thoughts?

So here's a little diddy for the man child (my friends bf)

Tell me, have you ever lost a friend to a significant other or felt abandoned by a friend?

P.S Let me make it clear, I'm not hot for the guy or jealous of my friend (if she's happy I'm happy,even if I think the guy is a jerk.) and right now I'm just seeing what's out there for me. I don't mind the single life. When someone is supposed to come into my life they will, until then I'm taking care of my stuff and waiting.