Observations from the outside looking in.

Today, this week has been a long and grueling one. 

My stress levels are about as up and down as my circadian rhythm. 

I’ve changed my major (for the second and hopefully last time).

I really, REALLY despise math. I see no point in it right now and how it will help me in my major, other than basic things. I would love to be done with it now. 

Espresso and chocolate have become two major players in my diet.

 I need more art in my life, including the chance to make it and indulge myself completely in it. I don’t care as long as it’s tangible. 

Freshman year really is the most stressful, I think I’ve gained my “freshman 15” and then some in the past month since the semester has started. 

I want to win the lottery and pay off school and save some for future semesters, and then help my mom out a bit. 

I want to get lost in a beautiful book. 

I need a hug. 

I know that things in my life will get better, but these rough days are just the exchange I get for having some pretty awesome days at the beginning of this week. And I’m okay with that. 

Yoga, I should start doing that.

xoxo 

sweet, simple relief

I've had a better day today. The stress has seems to be mostly slept away and while I'm still haunted by some of the things that I need to actually be worrying about I did the closest thing to cost effective therapy that I could do.

I found my boyfriend, who has also been under a lot of stress lately too, and we just held each other.

Sometimes I just want to run off and join the circus.

Someone once told me that it's better to get your thoughts out on paper than to keep them bottled inside and on the verge of spilling over and becoming an even bigger mess than they started out with. So here goes.

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Right now there is so much on my mind that I am having trouble comprehending it all. So what's a girl to do?

Why eat chocolate and watch chick flicks of course, and maybe even bond over media and school and general awesomeness to semi-strangers on Twitter..ya know, typical Wednesday afternoon happenings.

• The pressure of yearbook is starting to get to me; I like the whole premise of the class, but I feel like I threw myself to the starving lions.
• My work schedule is interesting, while I'm not complaining about the fact that I have a job. It's more like the fact that my class schedule was decided before I got the job so my sleep schedule has been significantly altered so in between classes,homework and interviewing people and attempting social time I feel like I am mildly failing at life. 
• My anxiety probably needs to be treated soon. 

I'm debating between changing my majors again. I'm currently a Convergent Media and PR major right now, but after a random and all together amazing discussion with one of my English professors I am highly considering changing one of my majors to Technical Communications so that I can thread the two together and make them both work for me in their own fantastic ways.

I have a lot of thinking to do and I'm once again doing what I do best and over-analyzing the hell out of all of these situations even though I know that in the end everything will most likely turn out for the better, at least I'm hoping so anyways.

xoxo

What are some of  your coping methods when life starts to get a little rough around the edges?


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