Sometimes I just want to run off and join the circus.

Someone once told me that it's better to get your thoughts out on paper than to keep them bottled inside and on the verge of spilling over and becoming an even bigger mess than they started out with. So here goes.

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Right now there is so much on my mind that I am having trouble comprehending it all. So what's a girl to do?

Why eat chocolate and watch chick flicks of course, and maybe even bond over media and school and general awesomeness to semi-strangers on Twitter..ya know, typical Wednesday afternoon happenings.

• The pressure of yearbook is starting to get to me; I like the whole premise of the class, but I feel like I threw myself to the starving lions.
• My work schedule is interesting, while I'm not complaining about the fact that I have a job. It's more like the fact that my class schedule was decided before I got the job so my sleep schedule has been significantly altered so in between classes,homework and interviewing people and attempting social time I feel like I am mildly failing at life. 
• My anxiety probably needs to be treated soon. 

I'm debating between changing my majors again. I'm currently a Convergent Media and PR major right now, but after a random and all together amazing discussion with one of my English professors I am highly considering changing one of my majors to Technical Communications so that I can thread the two together and make them both work for me in their own fantastic ways.

I have a lot of thinking to do and I'm once again doing what I do best and over-analyzing the hell out of all of these situations even though I know that in the end everything will most likely turn out for the better, at least I'm hoping so anyways.

xoxo

What are some of  your coping methods when life starts to get a little rough around the edges?


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It's 5 o'clock somewhere

IIt's 8 minutes into Cinco de Mayo and I would already like to start drinking (it's 5 o' clock somewhere dammit),  and the last two nights at work have been just like being in high school again. My high school experience was mundane at best, but since I'm not a fan of drama in the first place I'm super excited to not be going to work tomorrow.

I checked a very important website (the school I applied for) and I saw some good things, just short of missing a last check mark and an acceptance letter I'm feeling pretty damn good about this. I'm certainly not letting any negative people knock me down either, no matter how hard they may try and if they do knock me down they will not keep me down for long, that's just not happening. Nope. Not at all. Okay I'm done sounding cocky because that's not me at all.

Hmmm.... any new events coming up?  Oh! I have another dentist appointment on Monday, yay more numbing and not being able to feel my face, this time the right side!!! Mother's Day is this weekend, my brother's and I are cooking my mom breakfast and bringing it to her in bed, I'm getting her fresh flowers and the new Stevie Nick's album, I considered tickets for her concert in a few months but I'm poor so I'm settling for the next best thing. Then my brother's and my mom are going to an amusement park for the day while I go to work. I'm jealous.

So what's new with you guys and gals?

xoxo

Trying something new I think.

Movies I want to see this month:
Something Borrowed
Bridesmaids
Skateland
and a lot more!

xoxo

Any movie recommendations?

A condescending wish list...for life

I wish my mom would show me the same kind of love and attention that she shows my brother's.

I wish she treated me like her daughter instead of her house mate/maid/nanny.

I wish that things in my life came a little bit easier for me.

I wish that I could be as outspoken/ballsy as ChelsTalksSmack and a bunch of other amazing women I follow/read/know.

I wish that I hadn't been kicked out of my friend's house due to her aunt and cousin moving in, though they have yet to move in.

I wish I had spent more time with my dad more before he passed.

As much as I have been through in my life and I am more than thankful for surviving it all,  but sometimes a girl is allowed to have wishes even if they go unfulfilled.

It's been a long day, and I felt this had to get out of my head and off my chest.

I don't want to grow up, I always want to be a Toys R Us kid!

I just scheduled my first dentist appointment for the first time in, sadly, a long time. This is not a good thing, especially for someone with a congenital heart condition. I've really been failing at this whole "grown up" thing lately I think. It's not like I mean to but it has been kind of hard to maintain much stability in my life. Try as I might nothing ever really seems to stick and it sucks because stability is something that I crave more than chocolate these days.

I had a first date last night with someone that had started calling me "his girlfriend" before we even went on the first date. Sorry but 6 to 8 months of talking does NOT make me your girlfriend dude. Why must my dating history repeat itself? Can a girl get a reset button or somethinggggggggggggggg? I may restart my dating sabbatical back up again because this shit is bananas.

I really hope that when I go back to school next fall that things come a little easier for me, I still like a challenge but I need more than tide pools of happiness, I want tsunami sized waves of happiness and joy from here on out!  Even if I have to make them myself.

How are you doing at growing up?

xoxo