Wednesday, July 6, 2011

It's only Wednesday and I've already almost broken down this week.

CAUTION: Rant up ahead, turn back now.

I've had this crippling headache for two days now and it's really starting to become less of a pain in the head and more of a pain in my ass. NO amount of pills that I have taken have made this pain end. Granted it's only been two so far but seriously. I've been thisclose to a nervous break down since Monday, I do realize that it's only Wednesday but the light at the end of the tunnel is being a damn tease!

My money is being stretched down to the last penny,I haven't bought anything needed for school yet, my car still hasn't been fixed yet, my brother seems to think that he can run the streets all hours of the day and night leaving me with my littlest brother when I have to go to work, not cool. I can't afford to lose my job as much as my mom can't. When I leave all of my responsiblities at home go to home. How's that for an Olympic torch?

My stress levels from living at home are going to be the death of me, I know life is a rollercoaster  but I'm not a fan of them and I want off of this one right now! But I can't just yet, I have to wait until next month and that seems like it's light years away instead of weeks away.

Last night at work was a crappy one, I accidentally got my phone soaked but thankfully after letting it dry out as best I could for the night I went to go get a new battery this morning and by some miracle it worked! Then last night before I got off work I tried to cut a pizza and before I could get it to the table the whole thing flipped over and out of my hand and burnt the crap out of my right hand. Thankfully I'm better now and my nervous breakdown can hold off for awhile.

Only a little while longer left here and then I can turn the next page in my book, which is good since I feel like I'm only physically here. My brain and spirit are already up north. I'm trying to keep my eye on the prize but  every now and then life happens and then we get back on with the show.

Optimism is my friend!

4 comments:

  1. My week has been much the same. Showed up for class today and found out my class moved... This is my first class at this school, and as the second largest university in the country the campus isn't exactly easy to navigate for a new commer. But, just know you aren't alone, I think it's something that hit the bloggers this week :/ hope you feel better soon!!!

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  2. I feel ya. I wish I knew of something encouraging to say but unfortunately all I can say is to just keep on keeping on & only control what you can since you have no power over anyone else & their actions. Also? Pray. If that's your sort of thing.

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  3. I feel your pain, this week has sucked :(

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  4. I almost had a rapid fire meltdown at work this morning...I had to do Zen breathing for like 10 minutes and put all the phones on forward so I wouldn't crush people's heads...

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