The Real World

"This is the true story... of eight strangers... picked to live in a house...work together and have their lives taped... to find out what happens... when people stop being polite... and start getting real...The Real World."

It has started! MTV the masters of television have brought back one of their most addicting shows and after one episode I am throughly seduced by the cast and I want MORE! Way to go MTV for getting me to tune in one more night of the week to watch your ridiculously addicting shows,sigh. 


But as far as my experiences in my real world? Well as always a roller coaster of major highs and not so low lows. My actual doctor's appointment (that I accidentally went to last month) is next Monday and I'm thinking good thoughts, the rest of that week will be full of work and I'm sure lots of other unforeseen fun things. But I think I may be most excited for Saturday. I'm going to end on that note because suspense is awesome. In most cases. 


I'll write more soon, but I may be posting more next week..we'll see. 


stay tuned. 


xoxo

Having A Coke With You

Having A Coke With You

is even more fun than going top San Sebastain, Irun, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluoresent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasently definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the "Polish Rider" occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the "Nude Descending a Staircase" or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michaelangleo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse

it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

Frank O'Hara

This is beautiful, how can anyone not want this? I saw Beastly tonight with my brother and it was great,  and totally changed my tune on my past slightly negative behavior about relationships and love and everything else. I know that love is quite a ways away for me but I'm a fruit that has to be climbed and reached for so my juice is worth the squeeze. Not to sound vain or anything...

xoxo 

Just a little bit about me.

I came to a realization the other day dear readers, you guys don't know that much about me. Well unless you have been following me for the past year than you might know a thing or two but other than that I have left you pretty much in the dark about me.  Consider this your flashlight. Enjoy!

• My favorite colors are green and purple
• I'm addicted to Twitter. 
• I have a really big family that I don't always have the time or money to see, but I try to when I can.
• I have moved out and back in to my mom's house more times than I care to count. 
• I have been pronounced dead 3 times in my life, I'll explain more soon.
• I have had 5 open heart surgeries, a stroke, a broken back and Stage 3 Ovarian Cancer, all of which I have bounced back from with flying colors.
• I'm a pessimist wrapped in  a thick mesh layer of optimism. 
• I believe that true love is out there for everyone, whether it's with one or more people throughout their lives.
• I've only been "in love" twice. 
• I have lived in sin.
• I try to make friends and stay friends with everyone.
• I believe in karma.
• I own more books and movies than I should for living in a two bedroom apartment with my mom and brothers.
• Of all the men in my life past, present and future my dad will always be my Number 1.
• I have champagne taste, but I only make beer wages. Yet I have yet to try champagne or beer, so that's a goal.
• I want to travel the world and see all of the ocean's to cure me of my land locked blues.
• My goals/aspirations/dreams are bigger than this town.
• I have a good memory, on most days. 
• I pull my fingernails off because every time I see my mom's pinky fingernail I feel the urge to vomit. Know what I mean by this?
• My car's name is Betsey Johnson , yes after the designer. 
• I want friend's like Ted Mosby has on How I Met Your Mother, relationships too.
• My mom is one of my hero's.  
• I know a lot of useless information about pop culture.
• I collect soundtracks.
• I'm neither a "cat person" or a "dog person" either animal is fine with me as long as they cuddle with me on cold nights.

Okay I think that is more than enough random facts about me, myself and I. If you guys want to know more that I missed on here or want elaborations feel free to ask, I WILL answer. 

Also, if you have any ideas for what any of my next posts for the month should be, lemme know. 

xoxo

I'm addicted to words.

I love words, I love writing them, collecting them and depending on the situation saying them (lol). But when it comes to quotes and damn good ones I lose my shit over those little nuggets of awesome. So here are quite a few from my Favorite's list from Twitter, both from other people and @iheartquotes:

Many of life's failure are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up. ~Thomas Edison


Too many people go through life running from something that isnt after them. ~ Unknown 


If you haven't cried, your eyes can't be beautiful. ~Sophia Loren


The past can hurt but the way I see it you can either run from it or learn from it. ~Rafiki (The Lion King)


Man may have discovered fire. But women discovered how to play with it ~ Samantha Jones


  I just think happiness is what makes you pretty ... Happy people are beautiful ~ Drew Barrymore


 If you judge people, you have no time to love them ~ Mother Teresa 


Politeness of the mind is to have delicate thoughts ~ François de la Rochefoucauld 


Don't hide your heart, but reveal it so that I might know mine too, and learn what I am capable of ~ Rumi


One cannot think well, love well, sleep well, if one has not dined well ~ Virginia Woolf


 A  pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty."-Winston Churchill 


I postpone death by living, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing ~ Anais Ni


You cannot find peace by avoiding life ~ Virginia Woolf 


When I'm good I'm very, very good, but when I'm bad, I'm better.- Mae West


Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower ~ Hans Christian Anderse


 It matters not that someone is born, but what they grow to be. ~ J.K. Rowling


Love me when I least deserve it, because it will be when I need it most. ~ Dr. Jeckyll


The world breaks everyone and afterwards many are strong at the broken places. ~ Ernest Hemingway 


ou can't talk peace and have a gun. ~Francis Magalona


To settle is often times to be 'comfortably miserable'. Never settle. ~Jon Harris


I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody." — Bill Cosby


Nobody looks good in their darkest hours. But it’s those hours that make us what we are ~ Karen Marie Monin


"I read somewhere... how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong... but to feel strong" - Into the Wild


It's better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you're not ~ Kurt Cobain 


Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting ~ Peter Pan 


We turn to God for help when our foundations are shaking, only to learn that it is God who is shaking them. -Charles C. West


"Service to others is the rent you pay for your room here on Earth." -Muhammad Ali


It takes backbone to live the life you love" -Revolutionary Road


How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world. ~ Anne Frank


You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. ~ A.A. Milne


For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson 


Okay that is more than enough for today, there WILL be a part deux of this I'm sure, I only have 1,410 (and counting) on my favorites list and more than half of them are amazing quotes. I hope you all enjoyed these and possibly got a little inspiration if anything out of the words of those that have come before us to the lessons in life we must face every day. 


xoxo


In regards to BEDM I'm not going to promise anything but I'm going to try like crazy to write as much as possible.

Happiness found in the simplest of ways is the best kind.

I'm happy to report that today has been an exponentially better day than yesterday was,which is good, nay -GREAT! I slept for about 11 hours last night and then went to a couple stores just to browse and Target of all stores didn't even have what I was looking for, it was so sad. Until I went to Best Buy and found it!

I woke up this morning feeling that crushing pain from last night gone and replaced with something that I can't really describe but it was a better one. The sun and springy air might have helped too.  I finally tracked down the CD and not even two songs in I knew that I was in love. Those Glee kid's tweet's were so right..the cd is full of great lyrics and well just  go listen to it for yourself. Words alone can not describe.

I'm thinking about doing a BEDM (Blog Every Day in March) since I'm already kind of on a roll. I'll try to blog every day this month, at least every chance I get.

I hope you're having a good a day as I am.

What makes you happy?

All we can do is keep breathing.

As of late I have been a little callused and brash towards pretty much the world and just about everyone in it. I really hate that I have been acting this way because it really is NOT the way I normally am. I'm not a goody goody or anything but I'm also not a huge bitch, only when I need to be. I have always had it in the back of my head that I was not going to be like my mom because she can be a little negative (or realistic) about things while I'm more positive and open minded about everything. Hell in several on my last posts I vowed to be a happier, more likeable, better version of me. So why is that so hard!?
Some theories about where this hit of rage may have come from; work, I encounter a lot of customers that I swear are a few tacos short of a sampler plate or are just plain rude when I am doing everything I can to make sure they leave happy. Ugh, I loathe working in food some days. Second, stress overload; between  boys and trying to be "Wonder Woman" and a warrior the strength in me is breaking down like forgotten muscle. I'm regressing into a worrier and just about broke down a few times tonight at work. Pathetic I know. Or it could also be from me not properly mourning my dad's passing which was almost a year ago and just pushing on and not really acknowledging it like a normal person might. I haven't even been to his and my step mom's grave site since they were buried. I'm not saying that my life is unhappy or anything or that I want pity or anything like that, it's actually pretty good but right now the pain in my heart and chest is a crushing one that I felt like sharing for possible insight. Til' next time I will continue to just breathe.




I'm sorry for all the emo/bitchy posts lately guys but thanks for the comments, I appreciate them.

xoxo

What do you do when your not feeling yourself?

I am woman, hear me ROAR!

Attention gentlemen THIS ..."Hey is your mom Single? She's extremely GORGEOUS. You are too, and you look a lot better with long hair, but still beautiful :D.I like your profile. Would you like to get to know each other?"... is NOT the way to get a girls positive attention. At least not a girl like me anyways, maybe I'm being too tough on the opposite sex these days because I'm a little jaded, or I just really know what I am looking for in a guy, but what are you gonna do? 


Don't get my wrong I wouldn't mind having a guy to wrap his arms around me during a movie, have a picnic with and take pictures with on lovely days such as these. Also, having a guy that can keep muggers away, and isn't afraid of things. I've been through too much already in my life that I don't want a guy that is going to hold me down and keep me down just because of their own insecurities. That's just not how I roll, sorry. I know that everyone has their own sets of insecurities and I totally have a handful or two of my own, no denying that. 

I'm also a hopeless romantic so the fact that I'm so cynical about love and guys (right now) doesn't really make sense, I know. But I have learned enough from my mom and from being born in the age of the independent woman that success is possible without a man.  


I do have unfaltering faith that there IS someone out there for me that is more or less exactly what I'm looking for in a guy, and as long as they can accept my eccentricities and I will promise to accept their's with my whole heart and nothing less. I know that I have a lot of things to work on and with time and a shit load of patience from both sides, progress will be made..


Til' then it's all about ME..


xoxo