Now that I have my new computer and wifi is back on I think it's high time for me to give you guys some of my promised posts..I'm such a tease. So I think I'm going to start off with my favorite blogger's posts of the month, I chose the month because you guys give me more material to chose from in that time so I'd say it's all good.
On that note...here we GO!!
Dancing Around My House- I first came across Juliet's blog on 20sb.com just browsing the users and fellow Blogger users and from the beginning her eloquent and entertaining posts have made me smile every time I read them.
deliberation- he's a man of few words but he's pretty awesome, plus his picture posts are the shiz.
PuNk rAwK pUrL- a Twiiter friend, a fellow cat lover and has a passion for fashion. Tammy is one of those people that you really would want to meet in real life one day. Her blog is pretty awesome too. Just take my word for it, k.
The Unconvential Oven- It's my Twitter friend Leanne's new blog, the last one was great but this one will be better.
S.S Vintage- also a Twitter friend and fellow camera carrier, except she has an Etsy and finds awesome treasures.
I think this is all that I'm going to do for now...there will be more of these posts to come so keep an eye out. :)
xoxo
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
A moment of time encapsulated..
- "Norah: It reminds me of this part of Judaism that I really like. It's called Tikkun olam. It says that, um, the world's been broken into pieces and it's everybody's job to find them and put them back together again.
- Nick: Well, maybe we're the pieces. Maybe we're not supposed to find the pieces. Maybe we are the pieces."
-Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist
The faint smell of campfire smoke slips in before you like a stranger in the night as you pass through the threshold, and just like that I'm drawn into your orbit like Earth to the Moon.
Nervous laughter passes through me as you gently caress me as though I'm clay in your hands and you're just the sculptor. The touch of your lips against mine sends ripples of delight up and down my spine.
The sound of your voice as you recite a French poem to me in the faintly moonlit room fills every atom of my being as you expertly twist and turn through every syllable of every stanza.
I wish I could have saved that night that fell into morning in a bubble and visit it whenever needed. Til' next time the memories we shared that night will have to suffice.
Now there is just silence from your end of the line, the mixed signals have been slightly translated but still a mess to decipher. I've said my peace and told you my feelings, now I wait in hopes of them being returned. I won't wait around for long though because I never was one to wait and hold out hope. So please just say the words, not just for me but for you as well.
Friday, June 10, 2011
I'm a master procrastinator and socially inept..
I have been blessed with a mere hour and a half before work to get everything requiring my laptop (with wifi) done and so far I'm making good time. I've pre-registered for class registration at school (way to be redundant school) and am now procrastinating on pulling up a new window to start browsing and possibly ordering a new laptop for my birthday/school.
I would have written more earlier but the pictures I want to put on a post are on my computer not my mom's and being forced to use a desktop as opposed to a laptop that practically has my LIFE on it is weird. Suffice to say it has been a long week, school prep, my birthday, work, trying to have a social life and being in a relationship that I wasn't aware of being in. Here's a good story for ya, everyone ready for this??
A few weeks ago an old friend of mine from high school sent me a message on Facebook more or less out of the blue blatantly asking me if I was seeing anyone, and since I'm not and wasn't planning to for a while I decided to hang out with the kid. I mean what's the worst that could happen? We're just two friends from high school catching up and hanging out...right...I was wrong apparently because two people of the opposite sex can NOT be friends!! Oh no, once you throw in emotions and sometimes hormones shit gets all sorts of out of hand. I thought that he and I were just friends just hanging out and catching up-the equivalant of a mini high school reunion. Extreme awkwardness in some situations included. Sure when he told me he liked me I returned the mutual feelings and told him I liked him too, but apparently my interpretation of his like for me was WAYYY off! We went out to Dave and Buster's for my birthday and scored a ridiculous amounts of tickets/random pieces of paper (his idea, not mine) and managed to split the winnings between ourselves equally which was cool. Then I made a mistake of inviting him over to watch a movie, I picked 500 Days of Summer because I thought it was a seemingly safe movie. not quite a chick flick and not boring.. boy was I wrong! Right before he left he asked me if we were a couple or not...and as life always tends to it imitated art. I just replied as nonchalantly as I could and told him that I didn't want a relationship, at least not now and called it a night.
Apparently those words are like kryptonite to guys, especially those in the "friends zone" because a good 75% of the texts that he sent to me and to my best friend about me the day after my birthday were brimming with douchiness and made this once nice guy turn into an "arrogant prick". His words not mine, though they do ring true, but ya know I had to do what I had to do. Forced attraction is not something I'm into especially when I thought that an unspoken understanding was in place. The next day I woke up feeling as though I had a hole in my chest the size of my lung...turns out it was just because I had accidentally hurt the poor guy the night before without really realizing it. I know I'm a stupid heartless bitch for it or whatever but in my defense I'm kind of romantically inept I only interact with guys that I work with/ are customers and the friends of mine at work that are guys understand how utterly complicated and fucked up I really am even if I don't show it too much. Because that's just how misfits are.
So maybe one day when I can figure out what I want and have my shit in order will I will a guy past the iron walls that I have built around my heart, til then I think it's just time to focus on the future and school and whatever else may come up during that time. I just need a little push off the edge for me to jump into anything with a guy, my fear is paralyzing...
P.S I got a shot glass and a stuffed Smurfette (hehe) for my birthday and a new laptop that I just ordered.
Have a good day all!
xoxo
I would have written more earlier but the pictures I want to put on a post are on my computer not my mom's and being forced to use a desktop as opposed to a laptop that practically has my LIFE on it is weird. Suffice to say it has been a long week, school prep, my birthday, work, trying to have a social life and being in a relationship that I wasn't aware of being in. Here's a good story for ya, everyone ready for this??
A few weeks ago an old friend of mine from high school sent me a message on Facebook more or less out of the blue blatantly asking me if I was seeing anyone, and since I'm not and wasn't planning to for a while I decided to hang out with the kid. I mean what's the worst that could happen? We're just two friends from high school catching up and hanging out...right...I was wrong apparently because two people of the opposite sex can NOT be friends!! Oh no, once you throw in emotions and sometimes hormones shit gets all sorts of out of hand. I thought that he and I were just friends just hanging out and catching up-the equivalant of a mini high school reunion. Extreme awkwardness in some situations included. Sure when he told me he liked me I returned the mutual feelings and told him I liked him too, but apparently my interpretation of his like for me was WAYYY off! We went out to Dave and Buster's for my birthday and scored a ridiculous amounts of tickets/random pieces of paper (his idea, not mine) and managed to split the winnings between ourselves equally which was cool. Then I made a mistake of inviting him over to watch a movie, I picked 500 Days of Summer because I thought it was a seemingly safe movie. not quite a chick flick and not boring.. boy was I wrong! Right before he left he asked me if we were a couple or not...and as life always tends to it imitated art. I just replied as nonchalantly as I could and told him that I didn't want a relationship, at least not now and called it a night.
Apparently those words are like kryptonite to guys, especially those in the "friends zone" because a good 75% of the texts that he sent to me and to my best friend about me the day after my birthday were brimming with douchiness and made this once nice guy turn into an "arrogant prick". His words not mine, though they do ring true, but ya know I had to do what I had to do. Forced attraction is not something I'm into especially when I thought that an unspoken understanding was in place. The next day I woke up feeling as though I had a hole in my chest the size of my lung...turns out it was just because I had accidentally hurt the poor guy the night before without really realizing it. I know I'm a stupid heartless bitch for it or whatever but in my defense I'm kind of romantically inept I only interact with guys that I work with/ are customers and the friends of mine at work that are guys understand how utterly complicated and fucked up I really am even if I don't show it too much. Because that's just how misfits are.
So maybe one day when I can figure out what I want and have my shit in order will I will a guy past the iron walls that I have built around my heart, til then I think it's just time to focus on the future and school and whatever else may come up during that time. I just need a little push off the edge for me to jump into anything with a guy, my fear is paralyzing...
P.S I got a shot glass and a stuffed Smurfette (hehe) for my birthday and a new laptop that I just ordered.
Have a good day all!
xoxo
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Temporarily out of words, and wifi..
I'm sorry :( I'll be back soonish. I have a story or two to share with everyone but I'm lacking energy and time to write anything substantial.
See everyone soon.
xoxo
See everyone soon.
xoxo
Monday, June 6, 2011
Level 21: completed!
Today I had a routine oncologist appointment and other than waiting on a blood test that pretty much covers it all and not knowing those results yet I'm healthy!
After all that I have been through over these past 21-now 22 years I think that today is cause for some major celebration, a birthday, a clean bill of health, a new laptop later on this week and a bright future in store. To say that my life has been crazy (for lack of a better word) is an understatement.
I know that there are other people in this world that have stories much worse than mine and that have their lives a lot worse than mine. I keep them in my prayers always I also realize how narcissitic this post may sound, but I'm really trying to not make it be. But a year ago I wasn't sure if I would even make it to 21 let alone 22 so this is a celebatory post of sorts. So this post was necessary and so was this. I don't think that this post went as I had planned in my head last night but that's what I get for not having my laptop yet and not having any wifi.
Hope everyone is having a great day! Those promised posts will be up soon.
xoxo
After all that I have been through over these past 21-now 22 years I think that today is cause for some major celebration, a birthday, a clean bill of health, a new laptop later on this week and a bright future in store. To say that my life has been crazy (for lack of a better word) is an understatement.
- born with a heart defect, that I almost didn't survive after birth.
- 5 open heart surgeries up until the age of 14.
- a stroke
- and about a year ago, cancer which I beat!
I know that there are other people in this world that have stories much worse than mine and that have their lives a lot worse than mine. I keep them in my prayers always I also realize how narcissitic this post may sound, but I'm really trying to not make it be. But a year ago I wasn't sure if I would even make it to 21 let alone 22 so this is a celebatory post of sorts. So this post was necessary and so was this. I don't think that this post went as I had planned in my head last night but that's what I get for not having my laptop yet and not having any wifi.
Hope everyone is having a great day! Those promised posts will be up soon.
xoxo
Saturday, June 4, 2011
A little introspection and a cracked shell
All my life I've worn a rock hard shell of stubbornness and courage, the proverbial "brave face" but that shell has collected some dents and cracks over the years. The first 14 years of my life were split between hospitals and a little bit of my mom and dad's houses. When I was born I wasn't supposed to even make it more than 10 hours due to a severe heart condition.
It's been a year since my dad has passed and I don't think that I have ever fully grieved, I don't know if it's because I just haven't had the time, the energy or what exactly but I think that as the days pass and things start to get crazier I don't think it will ever get done. In the past year since he's been gone I have noticed that I have been a little testier and angrier than normal. I've never been much of an angry person to begin with but now it's been starting to get out of hand. I mean I'm not like ripping people's faces off if they give me attitude but when your deemed the "the goody goody" throughout middle school and high school I have to let the "bitch" out of me.
I really hate how much I have been letting some external things get to me lately, from snarky customers to one of my brother's semi "holier than thou" attitude just because he plays sports and is a 12 year old man whore in training, yes I know that I really shouldn't let any of this get to me but it's hard for me not to sometimes, I tend to take some things to heart every now and then. It's a blessing and a curse some times...
Thankfully it's finally June and August will be here before I know it and I can begin a new (much awaited) chapter in my life and get away from the slight craziness that is my family.
I really miss my daddy you guys.
What do you do when you really miss someone that's not physically around anymore?
xoxo
It's been a year since my dad has passed and I don't think that I have ever fully grieved, I don't know if it's because I just haven't had the time, the energy or what exactly but I think that as the days pass and things start to get crazier I don't think it will ever get done. In the past year since he's been gone I have noticed that I have been a little testier and angrier than normal. I've never been much of an angry person to begin with but now it's been starting to get out of hand. I mean I'm not like ripping people's faces off if they give me attitude but when your deemed the "the goody goody" throughout middle school and high school I have to let the "bitch" out of me.
I really hate how much I have been letting some external things get to me lately, from snarky customers to one of my brother's semi "holier than thou" attitude just because he plays sports and is a 12 year old man whore in training, yes I know that I really shouldn't let any of this get to me but it's hard for me not to sometimes, I tend to take some things to heart every now and then. It's a blessing and a curse some times...
Thankfully it's finally June and August will be here before I know it and I can begin a new (much awaited) chapter in my life and get away from the slight craziness that is my family.
I really miss my daddy you guys.
What do you do when you really miss someone that's not physically around anymore?
xoxo
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Why Girls Are Weird (a book review)
Warning: Guys this is very much chick lit so you have been warned.
Why Girls Are Weird by Pamela Ribon, I can't say enough great things about this book! It was one of those books that took you by the nostrils and pulled you in with full force. So now this is my attempt to review it/not give it all away.
I came acrossed the book when I was at a store called Half-Priced Books (a little piece of heaven on Earth) with a friend of mine a couple of weeks ago and normally I like to read the blurbs on the back of the book before I decide if I want it but the cover of this book alone made me just want to pick it up and buy without reading much else besides the tagline-"Sometimes life is stranger than you are." and that alone gives me at least a little hope that I'm not the oddest person out there. But if I am, I'm not complaining either.
The main character is believe it or not, a blogger and a damn good one at that. She reminds me of ChelsTalksSmack in a weird sort of way but I digress. She begins writing at work just to look like she's actually doing something, and before she knows it fan mail is coming in and that's about the time when things start to slightly get out of hand, her ex finds the webpage tells her to take it down after pity fucking her after a family tragedy takes place, and her best friend and family help her navigate her way out of the mess that she accidentally got herself into.
I found this book to be quite relatable and a very well written piece of literature, I hope the other three books that I walked out of the store with are as good as this one was. The author Pamela Ribon actually has a website that she started before she started writing WGAW ( I couldn't find the link to "Squishy" which was her original site) but this is just as good.
Tell me what you guys/girls think about this review type post and I may do more.
xoxo
Why Girls Are Weird by Pamela Ribon, I can't say enough great things about this book! It was one of those books that took you by the nostrils and pulled you in with full force. So now this is my attempt to review it/not give it all away.
I came acrossed the book when I was at a store called Half-Priced Books (a little piece of heaven on Earth) with a friend of mine a couple of weeks ago and normally I like to read the blurbs on the back of the book before I decide if I want it but the cover of this book alone made me just want to pick it up and buy without reading much else besides the tagline-"Sometimes life is stranger than you are." and that alone gives me at least a little hope that I'm not the oddest person out there. But if I am, I'm not complaining either.
The main character is believe it or not, a blogger and a damn good one at that. She reminds me of ChelsTalksSmack in a weird sort of way but I digress. She begins writing at work just to look like she's actually doing something, and before she knows it fan mail is coming in and that's about the time when things start to slightly get out of hand, her ex finds the webpage tells her to take it down after pity fucking her after a family tragedy takes place, and her best friend and family help her navigate her way out of the mess that she accidentally got herself into.
I found this book to be quite relatable and a very well written piece of literature, I hope the other three books that I walked out of the store with are as good as this one was. The author Pamela Ribon actually has a website that she started before she started writing WGAW ( I couldn't find the link to "Squishy" which was her original site) but this is just as good.
Tell me what you guys/girls think about this review type post and I may do more.
xoxo
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